It’s 2023. I find it difficult to start the year without talking about my reflections or resolutions or goals or anything along those lines, but today I will try. Today, I will only look toward the future because that’s where I’m going. Though I want to mention that I’m not so good at keeping track of my achievements, and I don’t know if I really care that much, I won’t. I’m looking forward.
Right now, I’m sitting on my couch leaning my head against the back cushion, and my mind is reeling because this question that seems so simple feels so difficult for me to articulate. In past years, (oops this feels like we’re teetering on reflection), I’ve always had my resolutions finished and my word of the year decided before the clock strikes midnight. I didn’t have them done, so I decided today would be the day; I’ve since amended the deadline to tomorrow. This year, I don’t feel as attached to my list of things to do as I always have. I know I’ll do everything I want because I generally do in some capacity, but it doesn’t really feel like an achievement when I’m doing things that I enjoy in the pursuit of bettering myself. Achievement feels like summiting a tall mountain, doing something hard that I don’t really care to do except for the sole purpose of letting myself be proud of me in the end. Maybe I don’t want the hard in my life anymore.
“Let it be easy.” This is an affirmation I lovingly plucked from someone else’s arsenal a couple years ago. It’s a mantra, a meditation that reminds me to step back from overcomplicating and away from the edge. Nothing really has to be as hard as I make it out to be.
I think that’s why this year I can’t really fathom what I want to achieve. I just want to continue the pursuit of a life well lived. I want to think to myself “This girl is going places”, and do what I’ve said I will do. More than achieving I want to be living, experiencing every single iota of life that I can. There’s simply too much life out there for me to live.
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Let it be easy. I love that! I tend to overcomplicate things too, especially at work. LOL
I’m excited about 2023. I haven’t been excited for a new year in quite a while. Hope it’s your best year yet!
Work has a way of making us get into the weeds! I’m so excited for this year too! Thank you for the well wishes 🙂